Caring for someone who is 92 years old brings the ultimate in unexpected.
Years ago, before the fire at Still Waters, before I started helping Paul, I was in my mid 40s. I was meeting with Shawn, the publisher of a local alternative health magazine.
I asked him, "what's the most important lesson you ever learned in business?"
I was trying to soak up information and get lessons delivered to me faster than life was delivering them.
"Expect the unexpected," Shawn said. That blew my mind. It fits every aspect of the uncertainty of life. It shakes me to my core. It makes my inner control freak tremble with mad delusions.
Yesterday I got a call from the assisted-living nurse that dad had to get into the doctor right away about an issue with his lungs. so we rearranged his appointments scheduled for today. I will go meet him and the doctor later this morning.
I have a feeling that this is the beginning of another one of those roller coaster episodes. It's all been one giant roller coaster episode.
I will expect the unexpected, I will still try to plan for every scenario so that I can respond instead of react.
My attempts at predicting in controlling what happens in every aspect of my life can be exhausting. I suppose that's why some people say wear life like a loose garment. Don't take things too seriously. Lighten up. Let go.
All this clinging makes me anxious. It doesn't do anything to help change things.
a moment of peace from the previous evening
